Start Afresh, bright future is awaiting

im sorry for not replying what you said before you hung up... jst... words couldnt come out of my mouth... really didnt know what to say... well to be honest... i really didnt know that you really think like that.. i mean... even if you want to be with me, you think that we will have to give up on each other in the future because we cant be together... i really thought you wouldnt think like that aye... but i guess.. you are being more realistic than me.. i jst.. always thought.. no matter what happens.. no matter what the situation is... we will jst.. keep trying and trying.. and if we had to, we will even give up things that are very important to us for us to be together in the future.. thats.. what i actually thought and what i really wanted to believe in... even today.. i thought of us... like... what would be the consequences for us to be together in the future... thinking all the possibilities... and no matter what happens to one of us.. or even both... i had a solution.. maybe its unlikely or even impossible.. but.. some kind of solution that will end up as us being together... somewhere in the world.. but... jst know that... even if you try to give up on me in the future, im not gonna let you go.. and.. if i have to, im gonna give up my everything (except yourself) jst to be with you... you wont be able to stop me... bcose... i already.. put my everything in you.. i cant go back like this.. or im left with nothing.. trust me im more than serious about you and me.... i remember you said... you wouldnt complain if i hang on to you when you wanna leave me.. or that you have to leave me in certain situation.. so really... im gonna hang on to you no matter what... i really wanna ask you... why do you have to be so successful to be happy? successful.. only means more money.. but money cant bring happiness right? of course we need money to live.. but i ensure you... we will have more than enough... and... even if you graduate in thailand... cant you jst.. take some exam to work overseas? to live with me? for me? can you? i already gave my everything to you.. even if the exam is hard... you can atleast try it... give it your best shot... and... if you are worried about your parents... they can even live with us :) i really dnt mind.. as long as i can live with you... i can do anything really!! if they dnt wanna live with us.. and stay in thailand.. then... we can visit them really often!! like every month!! dnt worry i can afford it~ if not... i can even live there.. i can.. learn thai language.. or like.. do share marketing at home... share marketing.. that doesnt involve learning any languages right?? and.. share marketing is like.. the kind of things i wanna do as my job anyway~ so pear... i jst wanna tell you... nothing is gonna stop us from being together right...? so... please.. dnt think that we are gonna break up anyway or anything like that... when i hear those kind of things.. even when i tell myself to be strong... and no matter who it is.. no matter how strong that person is... tears will fall... i mean.. not being able to be with someone you love.. nothing is more sad than that... i mean... all those possibilities i mentioned... they are possible right? i really think im thinking realisticly... jst know that... im prepared to give up anything for you... and.. so.. know that whatever happens, im gonna do everything that is required to be with you... and that... no matter what happens, im gonna end up living with you.. marrying you... living a happy life... so... you should think that... in the future... we are gonna live no matter what.. because im gonna make the future like that... theres nothing impossible for the human beings to accomplish... and.. if u think about it... if we cant be together no matter what... why did god make us meet each other like this.. and love each other... we obviously have possibility.. it jst all depends on our attitudes and effort.. you believe in god right? you should!! bcose.. the god is the reason why we are here... alive like this... jst know that... we are together for a reason... and the reason is to be together.. not to break up in the future and enjoy while we can.. i dnt do anything that i know will end up in a bad way... i jst do things that are worth doing and that will make me happy... and this is one of the things that are worth doing and will make me happy... and really.. this is like.. the biggest challenge of my life.. im gonna do everything that takes me to accomplish this.. you can jst sit and watch.. but please.. dnt be.. iono.. jst.. dnt think like that... jst trust my words and believe me.. im gonna do everything that takes me to be with my lover, Pear Lorsirinant and im assure you a bright happy future for the best couple of Sung Jun park and Pear Lorsirinant.. jst.. please.. always have the thought that we are going to be together in the future.. jst... dnt think its a risk.. its really not.. bcose it is 100% that we will be together..!! i promise!! the situation.. will never break us up okay^^? i jst.. want you to have a good attitude towards our future.. and so... we can always enjoy our time~ instead of being worried.. or sad about our future.. jst know that we will be together.. and your days.. will be as happy as mine :) im really happy these days you know!!~ i really beg you okay? like.. i begged you for the past month... be positive.. and believe my words.. 'WE WILL BE TOGETHER PEAR!! I LOVE YOUU SO MUCHh!!!!' kk^^? im gonna try to sleep now... i will write you more when i wake up 2moro morning kk^^? good night~ sweet dreams and i love youu so much!! you are the best~~ joooooopz!! Sung Jun rak Pear <3 영원히.

Good morning love~ did you have a good sleep^^? hmm... its 5 there... around the time you normally wake up aye!! haha.... so yeah.... im kinda waiting for you to come online on msn or facebook aye.... today... is your health check day aye!! haha~ dnt worry about it yeah^^? you will be fine really!! im 100% sure~today... i think im gonna be out... not 100% sure but likely... but i will be home in the evening and be ready to talk to you :) aww... i still have my stomache pain... jst had to go to the bathroomT.T... whats wrong with my body ?? T.T omg i dnt want this pain.... sigh... hmm... do you have tutition today after health checkup? or jst... studying yourself?? woah... i jst realised... im going back to korea in.. like.. 3 days...!!! phew.... school starting soon already... kinda glad though.. because time goes fast when im going to school... that means... it will feel faster... like.. me going to thailand aye... i jst.. cant wait to see you to be honest... like really... i jst wanna... hug you really tight.. and i really need to see your smile... right in front of me... hmm... i jst saw you on facebook aye... and i tried to talk to you.. but no reply... and how come you are not on msn T.T? sigh... geez~ i wanna talk you know that... atleast check msn when you come on the comp.... k im gonna go already~ byeeee... enjoy your day and good luck with your checkup!! (actually no luck needed.. all skills) and.. love youuu <3 jooopz~

Good morning love~ aww i see you already woke up before me!! again~.... hmm... i guess you are offline already!! damn!! i was like... 10 mins late T.T.... but i think i slept 10 mins later than you haha~ because i prayed last night... hmm~ i guess you are studying now aye!! well~ jst remember... dnt forget you eat your breakfast and your lunch WELL today okay^^? they are really important...!! and.. be confident about the exam :) o yeah~ and... about 2moro's health checkup... really~ you shouldnt be worried at all aye... because... im 100% sure.. that you arent~ hmm... today i dnt know whats the plan for me aye.. i might be going out... because its my last sunday here.. and dad only take a rest from work on sundays.. but.. we might jst stay home because we are all tired haha i dnt know ><"!! i still havnt gone to eat eel aye!! i really wanna eat it.. but its like 2 hours drive away from here.... jst for a meal haha!!~ hmm... sigh... i wanna webcam you aye!! like really really wanna see you... hmm~ kk... 8 days later and i can see you right^^? i can wait!!! definitely~ hmm~ you have your exam finishing around 3.30... and then.. you said you have tutition in the afternoon aye.. i suppose.. that is around... 5? woah!! then.. finishing around 8.... okokay~ well.. hope you come on msn around then aye!! because im gonna miss you so much love!!!  atleast for 5 mins~ i wanna talk to you!! hey love~ im gonna go now~ study hard and good luck for your exam!! enjoy your day and eat well okay^^? i will eat well too :) seeyou later~ i mean talk to you later and.... i love you so much!!! so so so much!!! <3 you are so THE BEST in the world!!! Sung Jun rak Pear